The obituary notice of Christina (Tina) CHAPMAN

Nanna. I sit and write this at 2am thinking about life and how you're no longer in it. I'm sick of people saying she's with you all the time, in your mind and your heart. I don't want you in them I want you here with us all in person. You would always be the person I'd phone when I was up north and you'd make me feel so much more positive about life. I got your letter out you wrote Dan just before you left us, and some of the things you wrote break my heart as you both won't get to meet. They say things come in 3s and the 3 things I'm missing and loved the most, 2 are never to return and the other is still fighting. I know what you would be saying right now, "when will our luck bloody change". And nothing can ever mend my heart now; it's broken to a point it can't be pieced back together. 6 weeks feels like forever, how are we all suppose to go forever now without you. I sit sometimes and close my eyes and imagine you playing with my fringe or you stroking my arms and guessing what you've drawn. I talk to you all the time but then I think well we all are, so who's she with right now. I know you'd want to be with all off us at the same time. You were so amazing and would do anything for anyone. You'd be up there smiling with how were all talking and comforting eachother. I was naughty on the weekend and my mum even said the exact words you'd be saying to me, and how she'd be on the phone to you and what your reaction would have been. But in my defence cov did make it to the playoffs. And I know you don't care but like you said on your letter how much I love ccfc. Your getting to see it all from above now, you've got a birdseye view of the good and bad now. I bet you're there shaking your head and sticking your two fingers up at some things.
Please give my baby a big squeeze because I miss being able to do it, just like I miss giving you a squeeze. I love and miss you so so much❤️❤️❤️🫶🫶🫶

Mummy! I love you so much! I miss you so much.
Sometimes the grief is loud. Sometimes it’s quiet. When it’s quiet it’s worse. Everyone thinks it’s okay, that I’m okay, but I’m not!
I miss you more than anything!! Especially in the silence.
There’s never a moment I don’t think about you or miss you!
What I wouldn’t give for a hug from you.
I speak to you everyday. I say goodnight to you every night as I always used to do.
I feel the loss of you in my heart and in my chest always!!
It never gets easier. Every day that you’re not here is harder
I miss the girly chats. There’s nobody I can chat to like that now.
I love you my beautiful mummy!
We’re all sticking together and talking to each other. I know you’d love that! But all I want is you.
The thought of living life without you is too much to bear.
My bestest friend in the whole world! My beautiful, lovely mummy xxx

I MISS YOU SO MUCH MUM.My heart hurts,my eyes are sore,I just feel ill because the pain of missing you so bad.This is getting harder without you,life is so empty without you in.
I want to call you and pop up to see you but I cant and there's so much I need your advice on.
When I was upset like I am right now I would call you always and you would no what to say to help me feel better.So much has happened since you left and its just been one thing after another as it always was.The bad luck never ends.i don't have you anymore and I feel lost and don't no where to turn or how to continue with this hurt.
This is pain like I've never experienced in my entire life.
Please guide me mum as you would if you were here even on your worst days you were still there for others that needed you.
Today has been a terrible day as are most and I cant pull myself out of it.
I'm now grieving for two and my heart cannot take anymore of it.
I love you and miss so much you were the absolute best mum anyone could wish or hope for,you are in my head and my heart every single second of everyday.You loved so hard and so deep.
I know you are with us all.
(Just call my name and I'll be there).

Mumma, today has been one of the most difficult, of all of the difficult days. You always made Easter so special, there was always a long line of Easter eggs from you, loving Aunties, Uncles & Nanny. Then you, in the kitchen, playing Motown songs, spending hours making your amazing roast with your infamous Yorkshire Puddings. Then we’d watch Mary Poppins or Charlie & the Chocolate Factory. You’d usually fall asleep 🥰. You always made it special. No matter what. This tradition has lasted the years. Everyone was welcome at your table. Mumma, the pain of missing you is indescribable & unbearable. I just beg for one more hug, one chat, a phone call, I miss you answering my call with ‘Hello lovely’. I miss making you a snack, an egg sandwich or a hot chocolate. I miss all of it. You are & forever will be in my heart & in my head but there’s just this massive, stomach churning knot & an overwhelming pain. I have things to ask you, things to tell you. I’m so lost without you mummy. I miss you beyond words or comprehension. I love you so very, very much. You’re the best xxx 🪽

MUM
One week after I attended your funeral and we go through heartache yet again.
I have no words,I feel numb.
Look after my baby.
Love and miss you both so much.The time I need you more than ever and I cant break my heart on the phone.i need you so much.
I hope you are both looking down on us and give us the strength to continue in this horrible,unfair life.
Miss you both like crazy and think about you every single minute of every single day.
Love you both sooooooo much xxxxxxxx

Mummy I miss you so so much. It gets harder every day. I have never gone this long ever without seeing you.
Life feels so empty. I feel so empty.
All I want is a hug from my mummy.
I remember at Myton 3 days before you left us, you making space for me so I could get into bed with you and snuggle. I never wanted to let go! We always had snuggles and I miss that so much.
You always would say to me that ‘I’m a mummy’s girl’ and I really was. Being with you was my favourite thing!
I miss our chats. I miss giving each other the eye and knowing exactly what we were both thinking. I miss laughing with you. I miss playing boggle with you, the alphabet game and the ‘who am I game’.
The grief of not having any of that anymore keeps hitting me like waves.
I miss your face, your voice, your smell!
I miss phoning you for advice and you knowing exactly what I needed to do every single time. You always made everything okay.
There’s so much I want to talk to you about. I know exactly what you’d be saying about things that have happened. You’d be rolling your eyes and having a moan too! You seen through all of! And now you see it all!
I promise you mummy I will be the best person I can be and make you so proud!
I love you more than you could ever know!

This is all the donations made on the day of Tina's funeral. On behalf of the family we cannot thank you enough for your generosity, Myton is such an amazing charity that deserves every penny off this. Tina would be so happy with the amount raised .

Love Geo and Col