The obituary notice of Robert Anthony (Tony) GREEN

My beautiful grandad, I can't believe it's now 4 months since we lost you.

I keep you in my prayers as though I could speak you back into my life and keep you in my thoughts as though I could dream you back into my days. Sometimes I even believe it myself.

The beauty you brought to my world nobody could hold, or paint onto a canvas, nor could they brew it into a tea. It's a magical kind of beauty, unseen but fierce and powerful. A love with no airs and graces, just steady and unwavering.

I miss you, that feeling of home. I love you so much, my beautiful grandad.

Xxxxxx

Today makes me look back to my own first Holy Communion.

I remember the beautiful dress my nan bought me. A beautiful big white dress adorned with pearlescent beads. I still have it now, I think it's the most beautiful thing ever gifted to me - not for its appearance or its cost, but because its a symbol of the love in our family, how we love. What did I ever do to deserve you and nan? I am so lucky.

I remember getting my hair done at your kitchen table, the one you built with your own hands. You were really there in every moment of my life, big and small.

I miss you, I really hope we will see each other again.

I love you my beautiful grandad xxxxxx

One of my favourite memories, I had stayed with you and nan overnight. I can't have been older than 9 or 10 at the time. In the morning you and me walked to the shop, it was early but the sun was shining and the air was fresh.

You bought the echo and some fresh baked bread and we walked back.

We come home and you make me toast under the grill with some tea for breakfast. You were right, it really does taste better under the grill.

It was such an ordinary morning but I loved it and never forgot it. When you love someone even the simplest moments are so special when you're together. I love this memory so much, I want to go back in live in it forever.

I miss you so much and love you even more, my beautiful Grandad always

Xxxxxx

It's the last game at Goodison today, it has me thinking of all the times you must have been there having the time of your life with your mates. Young and not a care in the world. A version of you I never met but would have loved.

I laugh when I remember you told me about the time you were working on the buses. On the way back to the depot, you ran into your mate who said he had a ticket for the match for you - you get back the depot and try to cry off sick to the boss. He knew what you were doing because your mate had left the ticket with him to give to you, but he still let you go anyway. The bare faced cheek of it haha.

You said back then nobody drank beer at the match, yous all drank tea. I really couldn't imagine it. You? Watching the footy? Without a lager? I don't believe it haha. I can hear you saying now "I'm not an alcoholic you know!!"

It feels sad, to think about the memories you must have made at Goodison, and that you won't be here to see them in their new chapter at their new ground.

A lifetime of memories, I wish I knew every memory of yours. I wish I knew everything, I replay memories of you wishing I had absorbed every moment a little more when I had you.

I miss you so much, I love you with everything.

Xxxxxx

Usually now your flowers would be ready. We would prepare the hanging baskets, dig the borders of the garden and plant your flowers. When we're finished we sit in the sunshine and drink tea and admire it.

I'm reminded that the absence of flowers is the absence of you. I miss your beautiful garden, and I miss you, my beautiful grandad.

"As for man, his days are like grass - he flourishes like a flower of the field; for the wind passes over it and it is gone and its place knows it no more"

I love you so much xxxxxx

I was thinking just now about when we used to up go the abbey together, and we'd always ring eachother when we got in to make sure we both got in okay.

I could never keep you on the phone for long but you'd always say to me "love you so much" before we ended the call, and I can still hear it now. God I miss you so much Grandad.

"Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life"

I love you xxxxxx

Hi Grandad, I will ask you for your help with something - please give me a sign.

I love you xxxxxx

Thank you for everything Grandad, I love you so much xxxxxx

I can't believe it's 3 months now without my best friend - I can't tell if it feels like yesterday or a lifetime ago, all's I know for sure is that I miss you so much.

I would give anything or do anything to be able to see you again Grandad, I swear.

I love you so so much

Shannon xxxxxx