The obituary notice of Richard James LAWSON

God, I still miss you, not a day goes by where your not on my mind, I could be anywhere and ur still pictured in my brain with all your little and big funny memories, even when I’m in work,in the house,in school,wherever your still there to think of❤️,I wish you was still here but I can still talk freely out loud to you praying you will hear me,I’m waiting patiently to meet you again, hopefully being together again as father and daughter in another life❤️,It hurts even trying to write this because I know this is not how it should be, I should be with you right now watching a film and picking up snacks from our local Asdas!!❤️,Its just hard and I didn’t know what grieving felt like until now, I miss hearing you laugh and seeing you smile, I wish I had the chance to tell you how fugding amazing you were, and how deeply proud I was of you because of the way you helped other people!,you was a people pleaser and the kindest soul who didn’t like leaving anyone feel left out or down in the dumps because you was there for them, I wish I had the chance to be like that for you, not a day goes by where I don’t think, should I have made more effort to watch films with him?, should I have have just listened to you giving me a row just to protect me and not answer back.But I can’t blame myself, it’s no one’s fault, I just wish You WAS here and NOT up there! God I love you I always will you was my number one hero, my all time favourite person even tho I might not have showed it when we had our ups and downs but damn you was the person I loved the most in the world,Not having you here sucks!I can’t sleep sometimes knowing I’m not with you,But I guess this is life now and I have to learn to live with it and heal rather than let it get to me! I WILL meet you again in a different life time, and I WILL be your daughter again because NOTHING will break you and your baby girls bond 💕,I LOVE YOU DAD❤️🥰🥰

This week is the week we give you the best send off you deserve, although I wish you were here I don’t know how to accept the fact you're not,I just wish I could hear you talk once more, I wish I could see you breathing again, this pain is unbearable, so many people look at you as a true mate and a father figure, I will always love you, until we meet again dad, I hope you're doing well in your after life, and I hope you are the happiest up there because you deserve to be, I miss you more than anything in the world right now, I love you so so so much dad! ❤️💙